Pain

I want to be understood but don't want to talk.
I want to talk but don't want to reveal.
I want to reveal but don't want to see.
I want to see but don't want to expose.
I want to expose but don't want to dig.
I want to dig but don't want to touch.
I want to touch but don't want to feel.
I want to feel but don't want to hurt.
I want to hurt
myself.